passionmango

Erm, kind of. I have done some of them, but others I...kind of forgot about.

1. Workaholic- erm, I don't know. I do about 40+ at my job because its kind of required. But it's really annoying when someone goes PARTY AT SO AND SO'S HOUSE!! And I go....but i work tonight....but I guess it's good money even though about half of it goes for insurance....
2. I actually lost weight, didn't really get toned >.<
3. Well I was taking 4 classes over the summer, dropped 1 of them because I only showed up to a couple of them because I overslept for the other ones, stopped paying attention in another one, so dropped that one, and got A's in the other 2. so yay??
4. moving out is a fucking headache. not only is my mom now encouraging me to LEAVE but the place we were looking at has us on hold because there is no one leaving the place. I'm thinking about moving out somewhere else, but it would be to far for my roommate and she wants to go the other way blegh!! I will now go take an advil.
5. Well, let's see on taking care of my diabetes, I'm kind of watching what I eat more, drinking more water, kind of taking my medicine, more than I was before. erm, moving along, but less than I had wanted. 
6. Single for a month....erm, well, I was doing pretty good for a while but I am not sure if I went for the entire month. Now I'm back to being "single" and I think I want to stay that way. 

So I don't really think anyone cares about my goals for the summer or blah blah blah, but here they are, and now I will post my goals for the fall. I'm thinking about reorganizing the way I put my goals. 

1. Work - Right now its just work, less parties now so no reason to be upset. Also, after I work at my job for 6 months, I can go talk to a benefits expert and ask them about tuition assistance when I start doing more class time.
2. School - GPA needs to go up, I am taking 4 classes right now and really can't drop any of them because if I do its going to take me longer to graduate, and I really don't want to do that. I am going to go for the phoblotomoist certificate because I have a feeling the job I do now is going to get boring, erm, not really that, the job I do right now is like data entry, I feel like I want to move up a bit, maybe work during the day or have my weekends off. But, back to school, I need to pass all my classes tis semester, again with a B or higher, I personally will not accept a C.
3. Health - Again I will have the, it's not lose weight, its get toned, goal, and the taking better care of my diabetes, now that have like, super cool insurance, I will be going to the doctor more often and get all those tests and crap (they're free for me!!) that I need to get. 
4. Social Life - Save money, get appartment. I think cutting a bit back on the social life is a good idea, but still going out every once in a while is good too, considering all the crap I am doing right now, taking a breather every other week or so sound good, when I'm nt sleeping of course.


Alright, those are my goals...I will now...go to sleep. lmao, no I need to do the groceries. God bless all.

OK, here are my goals for the summer...

1. DO NOT become a workaholic (why do I feel like that is spelled wrong?) Anyway, I have a tedency of working too much and stuff. I need to not do that. With this of course goes get enough sleep.
2. It's not lose weight, but get toned. 
3. Do good in the 4 classes I am taking, good means at least a B in all.
4. Possibly move out, very tentative, I was doing the math and damn! that's a lot of money....that I could use for other things, like FOOD.
5. Take better care of my diabetes. 
6. Stay single for a month - this is actually a bet that's going on with my friend. Staying single includes making out, random sex (<---not that I do this anyway...), and actual relationships etc. 

On the whole relationship thing, er, I think I am going to tell that guy that I don't have time right now for a relationship (no seriously I don't) I have a feeling that he will say something like, If you want to you could have time, the thing is, I kind of don't want to. I'm kind of happy doing my own thing, having fun with my friends etc. He's always calling me to do something and I am always making up excuses not to, er, it's not that he's not a nice guy, I just ain't feeling it dawg. How do I say this to someone without sounding like a bitch and to really get my point across of, dude, am comfortable the way I am right now? Anyway.

I love my new job, it's super cool and fun galore. and I get paid yea. 

And on moving out, I've been thinking about it for a while and I am actually taking it seriously now. 

Going camping this weekend, going to have fun, goin buggie boarding, prob going to drown, see you all in the afterlife. 

PS> I was going to ramble about all the things I think about in the middle of the night while at work but it would take too long and I need to sleep. just know they involve how insignificant you really are, God is an atom, and Napoleon is in your lungs right now. OH yea, and Adam and Eve were really hot, guys would cream in their pants.

It's really funny cause I was like, dude, this means I will be free in the afternoon I can do so much more!! NO, wait, I will be sleeping in the afternoon. sleeping a lot since this will be the only sleep I will get...w/e sleep is for the week (my logic works so well...)

Anyway, I need to go write my psych paper, eww. And my his paper. and find out what we r doing exactly for french final...since I haven't gone to a couple of classes now, shit, no more random classes at random times.

Well, I'd like to say I want to quit my job because I offically hate it. I need a better one, or not one at all, which sounds really good to me right now. I know, I wouldn't have any money...I'm trying to think if it would be worth it... I want to say I work too much, but I really don't think i do. I do about 20 hrs. a week, which doesn't seem like a lot to me, but it just gets in the way of thngs. I wanted to go to the vigil 2day at nova, but I will be at work. The thing is right now I need the money, BADLY, enough to actually think about doing more hours. *sigh* I'm just tired, of sooo many things. I want to disconnect from so many things, and...I don't know.

I feel like I am missing out on something great, something that I really shouldn't be missing out on. And technically I am not. I mean, I am going to school, which is saying a lot. I don't know how many people I know who just quit after high school, how many people quit after a year of college because they wanted to take a break and never went back. I am trying to submerse (sp?) in school and doing something worthwhile, join a team, take more classes do SOMETHING ELSE besides staying at home most of the day after class or going to work. 

SO, I have a plan...of sorts. I wanted to start playing vball again but not sure when, I am thinking about asking to get sundays off permanently and possibly working tues. or something like that, still working out the kinks. I am trying to get in touch with the lady who used to teach me argentine dances and maybe start that up again, cause I really do miss it. I had only learned about 2.5 dances because I was still little when I started and we stopped because one of the ladies was a complete bitch. Basically, become more social besides just going dancing, which I really havent done. I think part of it is that I am not being social the right way, I mean, ok, dancing is fun, but I want something MORE. Something more individual, something more that defines who I am. 

I think what it is is that nova is not a real college, and I want the real college atmosphere. 

I've also decided I am going to play more videogames, I don't know what the purpose of this is besides...playing more videogames. I swear I enjoy playing them, but I haven't done it in a while, which is why I got God of War...which I love very much. Though it took me forever to kill the hydra because I am an idiot, and can't press O fast enough to realize that oh, the stick thin, right. It makes sense in my head I swear! I think maybe I was just playing the wrong games.

Anyway, hugs and kisses for everyone.

When I was little I used to think Jesus had a super cool motorcycle and when you would pray and hold hands he would ride through the circle, if someone had their eyes open or wasn't actually praying jesus would fall off, so I would watch him go through and when he got to me I would shut my eyes and pray, and I would imagine I would feel him ride through my shoulders. wow, I was a weird kid.

But talking about religion and stuff, someone the other day was like, dude, ur always inputting things when we talk about religion and stuff, so what religion r you?

And I said, well, I am christian, and when asked what affiliation (sp?) I say Seventh day Adventist, but I don't really agree with everything they teach, and so, if you really want to know, I believe in God and that Jesus died for my sins, I believe that Saturday is a day of rest and that it should be respected, and that you should try to live your life the best way possible and to LOVE. And that helping others is one of those special talents God has given me. And I smiled a really happy smile, like, my heart was happy and said, yup, that is what I believe

It's good to know what you believe.

Current Mood:

happy

So, here is a thought that crossed my mind while I was trying not to fall alseep in math. So, you know how I HATE it when people cannot speak proper english? OK, So I thought that most people who speak like that picked it up from slang in songs and on the streets. Well, The accent in Argentina, although it's a huge mix of immigrants learning to speal spanish, it is also street slang that was popularized by tango, which started as a dance on the street and later became popular. Here is my though...were there rich proper spain spanish speakers that thought people who spoke like that needed to grow up? Is this slang that is being picked up now the future really cool accent of the americas? That is a sickening thought.

Current Mood:	pensive
Current Music:	Carlos Gardel

We are at  war with our internet provider in my house. So I come to school to use the internet.

I had a thing due for pych today, and I finished most of it, so I was going to turn it in. I got to school at 8.30, the class started at 8, I didn't think the teacher would accept since he is one of those, must be hear at begining at class (meaning 7.50)  for me to accept anything!! Bleh. So no pictures of feet today.

In other news I've missed about 3 classes of pych in a row...I just kind of don't care? not, that's not it, I just don't like getting up at 8, but I should start going to class again considering that, ummm...its important?

Dude, spring break is next week! Which means I shall work like a bitch, and then some. I'm sure that I'll eat...or something. *shrug* I'm sure I'll do other things for example I think this is what my day will look like: Wake up, go to work, go home, take a nap wake up go dancing, go home take a nap, wake up go to work. I'm sure I will eat somewhere in between there. 

And so yea, I really don't want to be in school right now, I'm probably going to leave here the moment I finish this and come back for my next class which is at 11. That sounds like a bon idea to me. MAybe go back to sleep

Or read a book
Or study for my math test
or finish that thing for work
or work out.

Work out? wtf mate? oh yea, I wanted to be more active again. I'm feeling sluggish and the best remedy for that is work myself out. Be active, show no mercy to my body!! Really my work out consists of getting on the stationary bicycles, grab a book and pedal + read. LOL, working out my mind and body at the same time! yea, no, idk.

dude it's freaking cold in here.

How's work? thanks for asking, pretty much good. or as good as it can get I guess. I guess you could say I'm helping count registers more often now, eventually they will give me my own keys and junk. There's these 2 programs they gave me that I need to complete. So yea.

Dude, my stumach is like, louder than a hippo! I need FOOOOOOOD.

How's family? Families good, like always, nico is hyper as usual, eric is....eric. and angela is being angela. She's doing good in school, better than I EVER did, which makes me happy that she is not following in my footsteps and getting low grades. Mom is like always my mom and as bipolar as usual, just like me.

I got back my confirmation email from fafsa that the form has been approved and will be sent to the schools. So now it's up to cnu to see if I get in or not, *shrug* it's all good.

I will be applying for an intership in nyu, which makes me tres happy. the only thing that annoys me is that I can't do the summer semester and the intership this summer, so the classes I wanted to do will have to wait until the fall. I guess it's ok cause then I won't have to pay for them, but still, I kind of wanted to get them out of the way. oh yea, I don't know where I will live if I get the intership, or if I will get it at all, but you never know until you try right?

I don't know if I've missed anything, let's see, school, family, work, love life.

oh wait....love life. erm, idk. none? lust life maybe?? boof, I'm comfortable I guess, it's not love, hell no, but it's...comfortable. I took nicki's advice and said, if it's gonna end, it's gonna end but that is no reason not to try it out. It kinda goes against what I like to do, but it makes me happy. And according to the hierarchy of needs, it fulfills most of the requirements. On the physiologival level, I get sleep, shelter, etc. I feel safe when I sleep, since I feel protected. And I feel like I belong, accepted, I have someone I can talk to about how stupid some things are, but the hightest in the hierarchy isn't really fulfilled, which is a big problem because according to Maslow, it all leads to the top. 'A musician must play music, A writer must write' what am I? *shrug* In this subject I guess I am a lover, and a lover must love, but I don't love, does this mean I move on? wouldn't that defeat the purpose of whatever this is right now?

Interesting theory on love: 'love arises from being around someone for a long time, love is really another word for comfomity, you don't really love someone, you just trick yourself into believing this and tying yourself to one person because you have no other reason to be with this person, so don't worry about love.' That's when I realized how smart he really is. lol potheads.

So yea, I am going home now. cause I want food and don't want to waste money. tootles all, have  good day.

You know when memories kind of surge and you have no way of making them go away?? They aren't even bad memories...just ones you'd rather not have at the moment, so I guess that counts as bad. ANYWAY.

Didn't go to pychology today causeeeee it was going to be boring. I have about an hour and heif until I need to really do anything. Well, I guess I could do my math hw, but that would require me moving around and actually use my brain atm, which is not possible as my brain is on pissed off mode right now.

I like doing math when I'm frazzeled, like, stressed, not when I'm pissy. I guess I'm not really pissy just....irritated. How dare you be here? This is MY school, not yours, MY BUILDING, my FOOD. lol. yea, I can't really explain it. It just IS.

{missed me missed me no you gotta kiss me}

and he's sitting right there...wtf mate?

Anyway. I forgot my spoon to eat my fruit. I have a knife but I used it to cut my sandwich/bagel thing ewwwwwww. I guess I could get hungry enought eventually to eat it with my hands. Maybe later.

Right now I am sitting in the lounge thingie at nova. with my headphones on and ignoring everyone else around me. It's not that hard really, look enough like a bitch or a loner and people generally leave you alone.

My goal for today is to not have any sierra mist and drink water when I am thirsty. sierra mist is BAD. tasty, but not good for me. water is much, much better.

on another note, what is the probability of parking next to someone you know at school?? that's what happened to me this morning. made me laugh. I don't really know that many people. maybe, 3-4? maybe 5 if I really think about it. I mean, I can recognize more than 5 people but those that I actually know the name of...yea.

Does being frazzeled make less intelligent? Or is it trying to listen to music and typing at the same time? w.e.

New topic. Abbey reads really weird shit. Seriously abbey, I did not think you liked books like that. [am referencing to friday] I mean, it's not any worse than the crap I read, but it's expected of me. I think we will have to see that girly level in your library, especially considering the fact that you BOUGHT the other books by rhodes. you make me chuckle. 

I have a runny nose. it's gross.

What else can I update? I will probably be closing the store at night sometime soon. They are already adding my certification. ew ew ew ew ewwwww. *grumblegrumble*




sorry, I spaced out there. Just a little though, nothing to be really worried about. I guess I can't really write about anything else. aight then have safe good fun everyone.

tootles.

Current Mood:

irritated

I feel like chris now, except he isn't updating daily...I think. Talking about chris, I seem to see chris look alikes EVERYWHERE. NO bs, but chris, I think you should let ur hair grow out a little more and dye it red. cause that's the lastest chris I have seen lol.

BUGGERS!!

K then, on to why I was updating today. Nico and Eric saw employee of the month recently....so what do they do? Nico puts on my cvs nametag, eric puts on my mom's, which says shift supervisor, which makes him incharge of nico, and they play a game the like to call, "employee of the month" dear lord what is this world coming to??

Talking about work...they want to me to start clsing the store sat & sun nights, dude! My party nights!! LOL, well, that isn't really the reason I don't want to do it, well, it's part of it, I don't just go to parties, I also go to CNU and if I accept this really puts a damper on my travels. Not only that Mclean is  A WHOLE LOT BIGGER than my old store, for example, while my old store had one change drawer and....I think 4 registers, this store has 2 change drawers and I think about 8 registers. It also makes more money. Again it is a sat and sun so it makes less than it does during the week, but all things considered it still makes more than the old sotre did on regular week days! I counted the registers the other day with my mom and she was surprised I knew so much (WHY is she always surprised when I know something???) I mean...it is more money and having the ceritfication will help me get a job later...but it's more work!! I don't want to do more work. what I think I will do is tell them if they want me to work sat nights to take me off of wed. nights. cause work right after school is annoying. 

BUGGIES!! LMAO.

I like my trips to cnu...I thing I will tell them to give me one weekend off a month so I can go down and have fun. I mean, it's only until 11 technically and I guess the place I usually go to doesn't really get going until 11...but it's 11.30 when I get home, 12 by the time I might be going out abouts.

wait wait interlude good song playing gotta listen (^.^)

K, I'm back. Well, I guess it's not all about the dancing (haharight) I'm mostly bummed (sp?) about the whole now restricted on my schedule and I can't be like, randomly picking up at 8 at night and being like, going to CNU bye! lol, not that i can do that anyway, I guess really I don't mind that much, I'm been pushing for my certification for a while now, and they give me all the perks of being a supervisor (by perks I mean not) but not the pay. It's getting irritating. and I know I could handle the reponsibility of a smaller store, but I bigger store I'm kind of like err, I know they are not going to just drop it on my lap, but ya know, jitters in the stumach.

Dude I gotta go to class soon, but talking about class, I'm really trying to see if there is a way of taking a picture of my pych teacher with his burkies(sp?) on, and soon, without creeping him out. Dude, I saw him the other day walking through the snow with his damn shoes, lol, I laughed so hard because it reminded me of abbey complaining about the cold with her shoes on. dorks, all of you. maybe it's a german thing.

btw, I am addicted to sierra mist. I drink about 3-4 a day when I am in school. it's got about 60 something carbs, so that's really bad considering I'm not taking my insulin again. I'M TRYING I SWEAR!! It's just so much hassle, I did it for like a week straight a couple of weeks ago but then I stopped again. I tried carrying it with me but I just ignore it. I'm such a dork sometimes. I'm thinking about putting a note on the door so I see it before I go that says, Did you take you insulin today?lol. oh, and am also thinking about putting a sign over the way to get into my room the says la cueva, which is the cave in spanish, which is what my mom calls my room. she's always like "wow, your out of the cave!" and I always say, "yea, well, now I'm going back, just needed my sierra mist."

I bought cans of sierra mist and accidently left it upstairs...it was gone in less than an hour, nico was jumping all over the place *sigh* but I stole ton's idea and started putting them in my window, and even though they are more visible to the kids...they dont drink it, maybe it's because it's in my room?? meh, je ne sais pas.


Anyway, I should go to class now. byez and ltz.

Current Location:	nova library.
Current Mood:	content
Current Music:	Juanes - Fotografia. and Nelly furtado - say it right!

I always get so surprised when someone thinks I'm hot. Especially if they are cute too. I mean, I know I am cute, but when someone is like "dude she was totally HOT!" I'm like, errrr, come again? Went dancing yesterday and one of my friends friend was all flirty with me. And when I go dancing I like to stay in a corner while my friend flirts, cause I'm not much of a flirt. BUt I found out later he was asking my friend a bunch of questions about me and that he really liked me. And he was cute!! But not really my type. just cute. My friend thought he was really really hot. Oh well.

But not only did he think I was cute there were these 3 guys I was hanging out with who I see once in a while when I go dancing and we all dance together blah blah blah. But we were talking and they were like, so....do you have a bf? and I was like um, no. and they were like....do...you want one? and I was like. no. So they were asking m why and I told them I don't need one blah blah blah. and they were like well, that a stupid reason and I told them I was perfectly happy right now and I left the group and started dancing with my friend which I later brought back with me and told them she was my gf.  I always do this, I bet everyone who is a regular there thinks I have like 3 gf because I've done that with 3 of my friends. like my friend put it...I am a pimp, lol.

Talking about pimps I saw this show about prostitutes on hbo and damn!! I really don't think I understand the who pimp-prostitute relationship, I mean I get it, but I don't understand why anyone would like that system, except the pimp of course.  and something one of the girls said was like whoa. 1. she was like "I like to have sex so why not get paid for it?" another thing she said was "I've seen how hard strippers have to shake their asses for a dollar, for like 3-4 songs. In the same time I make about $100" this chick also got raped a couple of times, so I think  it might be safe to say that stripping is a lot safer. Not to mention the whole stds thing. the guy wanted to stick his finger up and the girl made him put a condom on his finger. wow. and the noises, don't get me started on  the noises *shiver* This is what I watch when I go to grandma's house.

it's almost 2 now and I really need to get home and get ready for class. I really don't want to go but at the same time I really do cause I want to see what I got on my test. That and I haven't gone to class in a while, because of the snow thing. I don't want to go cause today we're gonna have to do 2 labs (ew) because of the snow day. 

My friend invited me to this party on sat but I don't know if I want to go. the male to women ratio is going to be a but off, but then again, it's almost all gay men to women ratio, but still. I wanted to go skiing on sun but if my mom is not going then I really don't want to go. oh well, I see what my decision is when the time comes.

Aight my loves tootles.